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kali nie aq join lagi kem ...hhhmmm kali nie agak konfius n kalut ckit..haa...bagi aq la..then..plak da mlm sabtu hari tu bercanggah plak ngan progranm kat PJ iaitu malam apreciation nite for comittees TAaruf Week...so aq terpaksa undur diri dapi mlm tu coz kem nie dah dknfmkan b4 cuti lagi...then..bermula episod kem gemilang........kahkahkah..hhmmm..since aq..dila n ema xde klas hari jumaat tue.so ktorang decide dtg awal kat skol tue...yelah kan...then dijemput ole ustazah ummi menggunakan NISSAN NCC 292..borak2 ngan ustazah ummi...tup2x dah sampai....siap persiapan diri n solat..pgla melahap jap..... la jauh plak tmpat mknnye...plak tu kwsan perindustrian plak da..xpe bdal je...haha~ namanya pun nak survive kan..then dah hbis mkn...balik tmpat asal..ad plak taklimat ringkas dari ustzah ummi.... kitorang kna tnggal kat masjid sepang together with peserta... so then...bermula la kem....para fesi disuruh untuk memilih peserta..so aq men cmpk je la pilih2 nie...then..plak tu terkna pla...

hari sabtu dua minggu lepas kalu xsilap..aq g IKIM festival sempena hari jadi dorang yang ke 8 tahun,,,hepi befday to you....so ad trip guna bas CFS nak g sana...janji kol 9 pagi..tp amik kol 10 lebih..ala..besala janj melayu kan...adat...huhu...sampai kat sana kitorang juz tgok2 booth yang ad..mcm2 dorang jual...dah namanya pun festival...satu bas kami juz ladies je...so hat=ri nie ladies day..hahah~pastu kitorang tgok majLis pelancaran n persembahan puluhan artis nayid antanya..UNIC..MESTICA..SAUJANA...n mcm2 ag..group dari Akademi NAsyid pun ad mcm islamic voice n kumpuilan sufiya n that da only one ladies group..makn mcm besa...haha...duk kat sebelah meja mestica lagi huh...sayang xbwk kamera...then..solat .n pastu sambung performances group nasyid yang len....tapi masa xmengizinkan sebab kitorang kna balik awal..eemm.around kol 5 lebih gtu..huh~sayang group hijjaz x perform pun ag...xpelah..haha~ad masa n ketika nanti ad la saya ke temu dorang tu ye..haha... sekian..:)

i want to cry ....can't i...???/or maybe i need a crying shoulder to carry on what i want to do..perhaps..it will have sumbody that i can rely on...but i dun think so..i juz can maintaining n pretending that nothing happened..till then..i juz can continur my behaviour that is..pretending to be someone that happy go lucky...even it's not...someone that nothing bad happened in her whole life...i dun no that this is this da real me...or juz hypocrite shazeaa ameera.....i dun have any speciality to make peoples around me satisfied to wateva i'm doing.i juz a normal person..i juz do wateva things that can make myself happy...is that become a punishment for me...if it so..by crook or by hook..i hav to accept it..as long as..it will make other people sorrounding me will satisfied to wateva i do..unless it will shut them out..even its really my fault..i have to accept no matter hao ego we are..am i right????!!!!...but its not mean that i make this condition as a main things in my l...

hari jumaat lepas...aq g fc fair...peluang yang lma aq nantikan...huhuh~....so kebtulan aq punyer kelas tamat kol 10 pagi hari khamis...so aq bebas untuk membuat keje aq anytym anywhere.....huhuh~....aq g ngan erma n sue....n dorang pun sma ngan aq ....xde klas......so bolehla jalan awal ckit...taula kan KLCC kalu dah ramai....fuh.....kalah pasar ikan....tmbhn lak ngan gejala H1N1 nie..so xla ramai sangat yang kuar...mostly owg pun kalu jalan pkai mask nie ha....tp kitorang dah mintak da kat klinik panel kitorang..CAre 4 me....care la sangat...dia kata dah hbs stok..so ...ku pasrah segalanya.....hehehe~ sampai kat sentral around 10 lebih...then terus g pejabat MAS..aq nak uruskan tiket aq,....tu tujuan aq sbnarnya....huhuh...nak dijadikan citer..xdpt nak amik skrg...kna tunggu 1 jam ag...so aq bgtau kat akak comey tue...balik dari jalan baru aq amik tikt....aq letak no tepon...n trs bla....cian plak aq tgok member aq dok duduk tggu aq... tym aq naik LRT nak g KLCC tue..hp aq bunyi....